Ventilation

'I may be too strung out on compliments, overdosed on confidence, starting not to give a fuck and stop fearing the consequence' - Drake

Ventilation:

They say that "It'll all come together when you least expect it," or they atleast say something similar to that. Shit I don't even know who "they" are or what "it" is, but the point I'm trying to make, is that "it" did come together. I woke up this morning and went through the regular routine like I always do, there was no change, no highlight, just got up, showered, get dressed and went to work. I arrived a minute or so late but I wasn't phased, the work was still gonna get done. I sat down, checked some things, ate some cereal, sent some emails and begin working on some additional work. At some point before 11am though, my attitude changed. I'm pretty sure I know why, but yall don't need to worry about it. Actually, fuck it, yea my attitude changed because of a simple text message. Or perhaps the lack there of a reply.

Now I must admit, it wasn't just the text. I've been kinda of edgy as of late and I guess today was just the straw that broke my back. I began writing something around lunch time to get my thoughts out and truth be told its still not finished (yet) and then I checked my facebook. Low and behold my homeboy 'the photographer' posted something that pretty much was a springboard for my 'ventilation'. A couple people commented and aside from the the photographers wife, they're not important, simply because I don't know them well enough to mention them.

The "photographer" said this... "Ladies please don't let your photoshoped pics, painted faces, plastic surgery, etc get to your head. All of that is fake. The real you is what you see in the mirror when you wake up. Make sure you really are bad before you start talking that talk and try to lose the tude.." It was a random thought on his side, but it might as well be the match the lit my fuse. Actually no, it was more like the detonator to my already primed charge [I've been hanging out with some military folks lately lol]. So I went in on what he said, saying 'say it again, damnit' but as soon as I pressed the enter key I knew it wasn't enough, so I retracted, deleted and re-wrote it first apologizing for the retraction and then pretty much going in on the ladies by saying that "YES, that is real fuckin talk. yall [meaning the ladies] want honesty from the dudes? Then please I invite you to read what the "photographer" just wrote, over and over and over again. Now I'm usually not like this...ask the photographer, shit ask the photographers wife... but the shit is getting to some of yalls heads and its fucking rediculous (<--in my kanye voice). Yes yall are beautiful, thats why we compliment and sometimes even try to get at you. But dont let your 'painted faces' (ha, thats funny) and all around sex appeal effect the the concept of your real inner beauty. period." Seconds later, the "photographer" gave me a kudos in the form of  "That was on point Foots!!!"

But oddly I wasn't finished, people who know me, know I'm about keeping a smile on a face especially that of a rather attractive woman. I prefer smiles over frowns or any other facial expression 9 times out of 10, but I guess I hit my boiling point (like I said, I got pushed over the edge) so I ran with it again.

I had to let whoever was reading it at this point know, that "I'm usually not like this...but fuck it I gotta let em know'. It was like the "Photographer" knew what I was talking about because he threw out his 2 cents on his attraction for "the more natural look." He went on to say that he's "Never been a boobie guy (lol) so implants and all that ain't for me. If u can pull off no make up, sweat pants and some jordans you a winner... A lot of girls these days are plain arrogant and delusional and I place a big part of the blame on dudes that will say and do anything to get some."..It was like dude was lining em up so I could knock em down, I felt exactly where he was coming from, we had similar, yet different, interests, so I let him know that he was on point in his statement, and then said 'anything more than a handful is over the top for me, cause I got some big hands (lol). But yea, I like em in sweats and J's too, but I can't lie, I love it when they're all 'painted' up as well. Perfection would be the way Aaliyah looked in that video with DMX [Back in 1 Piece], good lord...lol. We knew she looked good 'painted up' and what not, but in some sweats, a hoody, and some tims...WOW! And yea, arrogant and delusional (<--agree and agree) and HYFR [Hell Yea Fuckin Right] to what you said about these dudes who will say or do anything to get some cut. Thats not what lifes about. They'll realize that when they either A) get older or B) find someone who'll broaden their horizons further than 30 minutes of 'cut time'. Its dudes like them, that make it hard for real dudes to get anywhere with anyone. Pisses me the F*CK off actually. Step to a good girl and treat her good, don't spit some bullsh*t just cause you trying to hit..." I guess I shocked a few heads because the 'likes' came in and even the "photographers wife" said 'Foots, I knew I fucked with you homie.. well said...well said.."

Whats weird about it though, is I still don't think I got my point across....