A False Fantasy...

There comes a time when you have have to grow. Sometimes it hurts....

["Love the game, but not all the cortezone in the world could conceal the pain" - Wale (Varsity Blues) ]

Every day I wake up,

I look over to my side

And there she is, sleeping.

My beautiful bride

Her head lay on the pillow

While her body so calm

I always ask myself why?

And how'd I wait for so long

Closer I get to her.

I love the days like this

Each one starts  like it ends

So I lean in for my kiss

She wakes up with the smile

Fell in love with it from the start

She wakes up knowing

That I'll never break her heart

Throughout the day we talk,

Email, Text and IM

A groom with a lovely bride

Can't believe that I'm him

Coming home is like a rush.

Head to toe, all the senses

Sometimes its overwhelming

I'm her prince, she's my princess

Cooking in the kitchen,

Pouring glasses full of wine

I didn't like the red

But for you I'll say 'its fine'

Chopping up the veggies

Skillet warming, meat ready

Water in the pot. Sauce and Noodles

Love making you spaghetti

1 bottle down, so we open another

While sitting at our table

We toast to each other.

Dishes in the washer,

Rinse the pots, rinse the pans

"I got this baby, you go lay down,

 rest those pretty hands"

TV comes on,

We watch our little show

Soft kisses, in my arms

In the light of the, glow

"Wake up baby, its getting late"

My eyes open to your smile

"Lets go to bed", I take your hand

Behind you, I'd follow miles.

We go into our room.

You cross the threshold in my arms

We undress, off tomorrow

So tonight...no alarms

Pillows tossed onto the floor

In bed now, side by side

Loving the time we spend together

I love you as my bride

Every day is like a rush with you

I love you down to my inner core.

I'd swim around this whole world for u.

Just meet me at the shore.

Asking you those 4 little words...

"Will you, marry me"

I'll never forget that smile,

When you said 'yes', so happily.

I remember it like its yesterday

Everything clear and so bright

Then I open my eyes, to see whats happening

Sadly I focus and see the light.

What I've said to you in the words above,

Hasn't happened this is fantasy.

Because I lied to the woman I loved

So now there's no her, or me.

Hope you enjoy what you've read.

About the pain that I've carried

She's not the 1 in my life

And unfortunately...we're not married