How was your day?

Its been that frustrating, kind of day

If I had a girl, she'd catch it ina way.

And by “it” you know what I mean

Lets see if my words, are some of your dreams....

If you were there when I got home

We’d do some talking but not for long.

Because I've had that kind of day,

Where I’d rather talk, a different way

I'd come through the door and call out for you

Then locate your lips, and body too

You'd say 'hello' and kiss me soft

And that’d be the key that started us off.

I'd pull you back in, to taste those lips

Your body coming too, with my hands on your hips

"Food is on the stove" …’its gonna get burnt’

"But I need to flip the tenders"…’ they're not getting turnt’

"And what about the curtains…” then you stop, look at me

My reply is ...’fuck those curtains, let neighbors see’

Against the wall you go, things are getting hot

Not just between our bodies, but in your lil spot

Down slide my pants, and off goes your skirt

I just got home, but I'm bout to go to work.

Off go your shirt, and all the other things

Except those heels you’re wearing and that pair of earrings

Kissing on your chest, making my way down south

Bout to make your body shake, only using my mouth

Legs feeling week you can’t stand anymore

Lay you on the couch, instead of the floor.

Before you even know it, I'm deep inside of you

Your love is like a sickness, and I’m tryin to catch the flu.

Don’t wanna take my time, gonna give it to you rough

You gonna beg me stop, saying you had enough.

I'm hearing your lil moan, but I’m bout to make you scream,

Something like the ‘Wu’ but a different kinda cream

From the couch, to the table, the wall and then the floor

You tell me not to stop while your pressed against the door

Back across the table, feel the surface on your breast

Our always clean house, steady looking like a mess

Pick you up fast, wrap your legs around my waist

Heading up the steps, but steady keeping up the pace

In the bed now your grinding slow on top

I’m at my peak now but don’t want you to stop

Our bodies explode, in that special way ;)

Now I'm asking you. How was your day?

Chapter 7 (The Pandemic)

Chapter 7 (2011): " Life, Lessons, Learned "

Sometimes when I'm watching movies or TV shows I wonder 'why they don't continue them on to another season', or another series. But see that in itself is the genius part about why they don't, because it leaves us asking for more. Well I've been asking for more, so instead of leaving the series at an abrupt halt, I picked it right back up.

You all know how my sickness started, and if you don't then perhaps you should go back and read *The Pandemic*. I wouldn't say I've "relapsed", because I never said I was quitting, so instead I'll go ahead and say it I thINK i'm ADDICTed! [Shout outs to the Ink Addict brand!].

The title of the piece is "Lifes, Lessons, Learned" and is a battered (but not broken) angel who looks like she has been through hell and back.

-This was the day after I got it her, fresh ink photos are always the best! [Excuse the facial expression lol]

-2 weeks later. Healed great [I'ma get another HD pic tho]

Her Story? Well the battered (but not broken) angel, story is exactly how it sounds. She's been through hell and back, but still remains on my side. It goes a bit deeper than that, there are a few avenues of perspective you could travel down, but we won't get into that. Anyway, I like to call this the "title piece" to my body of art because all the ink on my body is in is "Life Lesson Learned". Danny Fugate  of' 'Ambition Tattoo' (Knoxville, TN) did it at InkFest Live in DC. Shout outs to Danny, you did your thing and thanks for hooking it up on short notice. Also shout out to the InkFest Live crew! Great shows, artists, and battles.

<Sneeze> Wheww, excuse me. I must be coming down with something, must be chapter 8!

Comeback Season

[Ok so I started this last week, and finished it up. Getting into this once a week thing. Taking things slow...lol]

Thursday, 1.12.12

I just got home from work and after a bit of strenuos day, all I can say is "bring on friday the 13th". I'm looking forward to whatever tomorrow presents because I'm tired of dwelling on the past. I actually told one of the twins today, I said "twin, I'ma tell you what everyone else been telling me about the 'past'.....F*CK the past! Its called "the past" for a reason. Reflect back, but don't dwell. Better days and better things are ahead. And if you keep looking back, you'll never see it when its front of you". Twin didn't say much after that so I guess she got my point. [lol, love you twin] Regardless, its true talk. Last year was some...well it was something. It started out with promise, everything was good, and more times than not, it was great. But of course it couldn't stay good or great for long, not without the effort, and with lack of effort, all good things turn bad. And bad they got, like really bad. And the year quickly transitioned from being 'the SHIT' to being some shit!

Let me put it like this....
It was like running a 200m or 400m race. When the ball dropped, BOOM! I was out of the starting blocks and ahead of the pack and quickly. Oh I owned everyone in that first hundred and fifty meters, "can't catch me!". But then slowly but surely, meter by meter the pace and speed slowed, I got lax and gradually lost focus of the things ahead. Before I knew it, instead of leading the pack, I was trying to stay in pace, seconds later I fell behind and began chasing to catch up. But my legs wouldn't let me and by the end of the race....I had posted the slowest time in track history.

If you get the metaphor, yea it was that bad.

BUT!! With the New Year, comes a New Day and so far, so good. Not great, but good! And thats perfectly fine. It doesn't need to be great now in order for it to be great later. It'll come when it comes so for now, 'Be Patient, Stay Focused, and Follow Through'. LMAO. I've been saying that since Jan 1st, 2012 and it sounds better and better every time. I got plans for this year, and albeit late, they're gonna get done this time around! I'ma do what I should've been doing for years, accomplish what I intend to accomplish. I've definitely learned from the past, I'm still learning to this day. I'll be learning tomorrow and the day after that. But come racetime we're gonna take a different approach, quick out the blocks? (oh of course) but with a pace that gradually speeds up. By the time the last 100 meters comes around, I'll be at top speed and on my way to a record time.

Comeback season, ya know?

Ha, I like the sound of that, "Comeback Season". The season where instead of finishing last, I'll be finishing first. I've got some ideas, and some things I wanna do with this writing. I see new ink on the horizon and a more in depth look into what I refer to as the 'perfect art of a body' (or perhaps 'the perfect body of art'...hmm it needs work regardless). That girl Sallie is gonna get the rest of her money this year too! I'm tired of her being on my back! I'ma take some trips, and I'ma learn some things elsewhere. Then I'm gonna come home, and then go some where else and learn some more things. And all at the same time I'ma be doing my thing and getting sh*t done!Yes more chapters to my inked life are coming as well, I told you its a sickness, and well I got the flu. lol. Matter fact, I still haven't shed any light on the recent inkfest piece. But I will, its pretty much what has kick started things into 2012. More to come on that, its already in the works.

New Year, New Day

Happy New Year and welcome to a brand NEW day. Every year I say that “this year is going to be different” and to its credit, it has been. But this year is definitely going to be different than the rest. This year has already started unlike the others, but we’ll get into that a lil later. Today is 1.4.12, and they say that you have the first week of the New Year to set your resolutions, so while I still have time, let’s consider this, a look into some of mine.

“Stay Focused, Be Patient, Follow Through”

As I said before this year started completely different than the rest. Instead of the usual shenanigans with my close friends, I went in an opposite direction and hung out with a different group of people. Namely my roommate and her friends, which definitely wasn’t a bad look considering my roommate and her friends are pretty hot [I give credit where credit is due, just saying]. While out and in the midst of unlimited shots, mixed drinks, and champagne I got to talking with a female who was having fun, but not the FUN she should’ve been having. After a few seconds I could tell the issue was with her former boyfriend and the fact that they weren’t together on NYE unlike years past. The reason, from what I could gather, was because they weren’t together due to some bullshit that was going (and had been going) on, for a while. In my opinion dude sounded like he didn’t deserve her, especially with being as hot as she was. Now, I didn’t know her to a tee, but she had a warm personality and seemed to be an easy going individual. She’s a woman so naturally, I’m sure she wasn’t always the most pleasant person, but no one ever is, not men, not women, not anyone. But I don’t think the guy realized her worth and what he had in front of him. We guys tend to make those mistakes. And usually when we do, it’s too late to fix what we most likely screwed up. Same thing applies to women as well, but I can’t speak fully for them. But yea, dude didn’t deserve her, again my opinion. My advice to her was to “say goodbye to the drama and bullshit that the years past have brought, and hello to the new year, the new possibilities, and the new life.”

NYE is the one night you can do that, you can go out and party your ass off, or you can sit at home and watch the ball drop. Regardless of who you’re with… family, friends, new friends, or people you don’t even know. Once that ball drops and the NY is officially started, then right then and there you then have the option to put what should be behind you, behind you. You can leave it for what it’s worth and move past it, or you can choose to bring it and all the bullshit it comes with, into the NY. Obviously I’m speaking from the perspective of someone who didn’t quite have the best year. No, it wasn’t a great year, a lot of great things happened to some great people in my life and I’m proud to be their friend. But if I had to grade “my year” on a scale of 1-10 (10 being GREAT), my year gravitated in the 4-6 regions mostly. It had its share of high points and low points but they were nowhere near equal. I’m not going to get into it, but let’s just say the things that should’ve happened, didn’t, and the things that shouldn’t have happened, did. And yes, it was my entire fault [believe me when I say, I know that], however one can only dwell on things so much before it consumes them. I’ve dwelled on it long enough and I am tired of being consumed by something I can’t control. I refuse to sit around and dwell on the past and the things I can’t change. “Everything happens for a reason, and the answers will come”, so I’m going to stay focused on the present, while living for the future. I’m going to keep a clear head and not let the distractions keep me from reaching my goals.

I’ve prided myself in being persistent with a lot of things in the past sometimes I can be overly persistent and while I have been told that “persistence is key.” I’ve also been told that “sometimes persistence can be perceived and interpreted incorrectly and results in overkill.” Both true statements that I have come to learn over the past years, it is what it is. At times my over persistence jades my mind so much that when my perceived thought of what may come to fruition actually happens a different way, then I take it to heart and beat myself up over it. When in actuality, it’s the expectation that I established that inevitably ‘did me in’. So as opposed to the continuous and sometime overly persistent persona I have adopted. I’m going to ease back, be more patient in some aspects and let things happen as they happen. I can’t change someone’s mind completely or influence the outcome to work out to the way I want completely. All I can do is bide my time, continue to be positive, continue to be me, and let things happen as they happen. With hard work and determination my time will come, and that’s when I’ll ROCK that shit! As long as I continue to put myself in the best position for the best outcome, it will happen. I can’t expect it to happen overnight or within a time period all the time though. I have to be patient.

When I was learning how to play basketball, my mom, dad, and numerous coaches taught and drilled “follow through” into my head. “Spread your fingers, flick your wrist, and follow through” and based on my shooting percentage, I eventually bought into it. But I had to learn the hard way that spreading my fingers and flicking my wrist doesn’t matter if I don’t follow through. This principle doesn’t just apply on the court though, it also applies in life. Achieving your goals would be making the basket. So spreading your fingers is 1 of the driving forces in making this possible since it helps rotation on the ball.  Next is flicking the wrist, doing so helps with the speed the ball will travel in the air as well as rotation. But if there is no follow through, then it doesn’t matter how much you spread your fingers or how much you flick your wrist, your still going to miss more times than you’d make it. With me and some of the things I’ve been through, I’ve said a lot, I’ve put the thought into it and sometimes I’ve actually begun the act of following through. But that’s where it has stopped, either I get lazy, preoccupied or simply bored with whatever the concept is and it becomes a thing of the past, and therefore a missed shot. I’m tired of my lack of follow through, if this was an actual basketball game, I’d have gotten pulled out of the game for my lack of motivation [“You’re playing like you don’t want to play, you’re just going through the motions, you’re not cutting hard, you’re not being a presence, you’re not finding space or playing with any heart or confidence. Shits not going to fall in your lap in this game, you have to go get it! But since your not playing like you want it, sit your ass down here beside me while someone who wants to play, who wants it, does”]. In a nutshell there are a lot of things out there that I have started but didn’t finish, they’re either sitting there incomplete or not there anymore at all. I’ve left work incomplete, I’ve left life growth situations incomplete, and I’ve left ideas and concepts incomplete. All with endless possibilities of what they could be, grow to be, or turn in to, I have left them severely incomplete because I didn’t follow through, instead I got complacent and I didn’t finish. Not anymore though, I’m tired of being complacent and not following through. This is a NY and a new day, not time for complacency of a lack of follow through, no sir! I’m going to achieve my goals, and in doing so I’ll be focused, I’ll be patient, but most importantly, I’ll follow through.